Thursday, January 29, 2009

weirdest day ever...

Thursday January 29,2009,
7:50am,F 2.1c Mahallah Asma'

seri : demmit!!kol 7.40??

Actually,jam tu lambat 10minit so makna nya dah pukol 7:50.Class EAP pukol 8.30,baju tak iron lagi.adehh.Aku pun bangun sepantas yang boleh sambil menerkam towel.aku siap tak ingat aku pakai sliper ape gi toilet..haha..

sheeda : (dengan muka blur)nah toiletteries ko..
seri : (dengan mata mirah)hummm..

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8:00am(masih hari dan tempat yang sama sebab takkan aku mandi sampai seminggu kot)

sheeda : (sambil pakai bedak muka)tadik kakak ko call,aku xtauk pahal?
seri : owh..biarlah..
sheeda : laju lah ko bekemas..ahe dah tok..
seri : sheeda,mun ko jimatkan masa pakey bedak,dapat ku bekemas cepat.Aku gk nunggu ko abis makey cermin tok.
sheeda : bah,lari jak ku ke bilit kamal.Nya ada dua igek cermin bh.(dengan penoh belagak sheeda mengomel)

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8:25am,jalan depan terowong.

classmate aku : kak seri da ready presentation eap?
seri : demmit!lupe plak presentation arini.duhh..
sheeda : laju seri dah ahe tok.
seri : ko tauk sik aritok presentation eap,aku lupak.haha..mudahan sik jadi.
sheeda : haha,ko nak present pa klak?
seri : herm..ntah.baca jakla pa yg ada.((finally nang sik da pun presentation)

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9.45am,E2-3-6.

Ini adalah perbualan SMS.Yela takkan aku nak calling2 kat depan teacher umairah plak.Tak pasal aku kene halau clas.

sheeda : aku nak g center pastok.Ko mok ekot x?
seri : okedess,aku jap gk abis clas.aku tggu kat edu.

Terjumpa Zahid kat edu cafe.Pehh cam deja voo jak.Same place,same time,same food Zahid makan and same person aku tunggu masa terjumpa Zahid semalam.

zahid : ko tunggu sape?(same question cam semalam)
seri : sheeda kawan aku(aku jawab sama cam semalam gak,mesti zahid dah hafal jawapan aku)
zahid : letih la seri,aku bz arini.
seri : owh,patut la ko makan awal.(typical malay punya assumpation!)
zahid : ko nak pegi mane?
seri : g center jap.k ar aku g dulu sheeda dah sampai.(sama gak jawapan ni sebab dia tanya soklan sama cam semalam,deja voo kan??haha)
sheeda : aku nak gi withdraw duit kat Bank Islam.
seri : ha ah,aku pon same.(sambil tego Jauharie,cam rushing jek nak g class)

lepas beratur sekejap jek,aku dan sheeda pon g la ITD nak wat matric card dia yang hilang dek kene ragut aritu.Aku malas nak masok dalam sebab aku gayat tengok officer tu.haha..tetiba.."menarilah dan terus tertawa,walau dunia tak seindah surga.."(ringtone tok kamal & sheeda)..Aku pon angkat dan ini adalah perbualan talipon..

kamal : ktk cney?
seri : sumwhere kat masjid.ermm..ITD!(sebenarnya aku tak tau pun nama tempat tu smpaila aku terpandang signboard kat atas opis tu)
kamal : hah masjid?ITD?papolah di cya?kmk nak kunci tok(bertalu-talu soklan kamal sampai aku rasa cam kene interview oleh michelle melodi)
seri : teman sheeda molah matric card.jap gik nak gi JJ nak g Public Bank...
kamal : kmk nak ekot!!tunggu cya mek datang.cney tmpt ktk?
seri : haha..ntah..mek pn xtauk.hah..atas babush.
kamal : k.mek g cya kinek.

Letak jek talipon terjumpa pulak Fahmy.Budak Law(kawan Zul Naga) yang join kitorang New Year aritu.Aku pun tegur lah.Lepas bertukar-tukar nombor talipon (kami tidak berniat untuk berkenalan ya!),sheeda pun keluar.Turun jek dari tangga nampak Kamal berjalan sambil letak fail pink kat kepala die.Tak tau la pe motif die wat camtu,nak elak silau or nak try catwalk(letak barang atas kepala sebab nak try jalan lurus).Pape je lahh..

seri : kmk ngan sheeda nak gi JJ.mok ekot sik?
kamal : kmk kecik ati ngan ktk duak sheeda.marek kuar pun sik embak kmk.aritok pun sik padah nak keluar.(kunun nak merajuk)
sheeda : eyh..kitorang memang sengaja tak nak ajak ko.(dengan nada sarcastic sebab camne nak ajak kamal kalo dia de class??)

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10:17am,bustop no 1.

kemudian terjadi lah perbualan yang berunsur lucah..Opss,berunsur censored.Kami tidak berniat untuk bercakap lucah tapi perbualan ini censored kerana melibatkan hak-hak privasi kamal yang terpaksa dirahsiakan dari pengetahuan umum(demi keselamatan aku sebab aku taknak kene baling ngan penyapu).Sampai jek kat Bus stop no 1,kitorang nampak bas rapidKL lalu kat bus stand yg last skali..then,kamal menjerit..

kamal : bas!!!bas pa ya?231 ka 201??(cess aku ingat kamal tau bas ape.jerit jek konfiden)
seri : 231.saba jak aku.
kamal : ari tok mek sa strange la.ktk tauk sik miak sabah yg salu pakey scarf ya?
seri : tauk,nya classmate mek UNGS 3 lok.kenak?
kamal : tauk x?tadik masa kat GPCL,tetiba datang org laki foreigner ngagak nya.pasya org laki ya padah camtok."sister,staring is annoying.blahblahblah...this is the las warning"(blah3 tu sebab kamal pun tak ingat sangat dialog mamat tu)

aku ngan sheeda bantai gelak sebab kitorang leh imagine cara mamat tu cakap ngan ayat poyo dia.Pastu tup3..paru2 nya mamat tu jek perasan lebey,dia ingat sister tu tengok2 cam nak ngorat dia.Lagik lah aku cam nak tergolek2 gelak.Pirahhh,jantan perasan!Few minutes later bas pun datang..kitorang pun pileh seat yang dekat2 so dapat la gosip-gosip lagi.sedang dalam bas tiba-tiba masok sorang mamat yang ensem and looks like imran ajmain.Mamat tu senyum kat kamal few times,tetiba kamal tergelak sebab dia rasa weird.

kamal : aih aih pahal org laki ya?mek knl nya ka?phl nya senyum?(sambil gelak)
seri : kamal...kecik ati org ya ktk tetak gya ilak eyh.kali nya nak tackle ktk nak..?
kamal :heh..ada indah..

sampai jek kat Terminal Putra,kitorang beli tiket then terus jek pegi atas.Cari tempat duduk then,jadi lagi peristiwa pelik.Taklah pelik sangat,tapi aku first time experience bende ni.Kitorang sibok gelakkan orang-orang yang jahil sangat nak dengar announcement pasal tren yang dorang kecah nak masok tu sebenarnya nak di parking!hahahaa..lawak siot..tetiba datang seorang lelaki.Dia cacat.Aku,kamal dan sheeda agak kesian pada mulanya.Dia duduk sebelah kamal.Aku assignkan 'Mr. X' untuk dia sebab aku dah lupa pe nama dia.erm,am syakirin kot..hurmm..pape jela..

Mr. X : Saye kene bedah masa umor 9taun kat sini(sambil tunjuk jahitan kat kepala dia).Pastu die attack kaki saya sebab tu kaki saya jadik camni(sambil tunjuk kaki dia)
kamal : Owh..awak sape name?(kamal jek layan dia,aku and sheeda layan sikit-sikit jek)
Mr. X : Am Syakirin(aku tak sure lah sebab tak ingat sangat nama dia)
kamal : Owh..

pastu adalah beberapa perbualan yang mengaibkan semua pihak,so aku ambik keputusan untuk censored gak part ni.Maap sebab cita aku ni agak membosankan kerana aku macam FINAS dok edit-edit part best.

Mr.X : nanti kita duduk sama-sama dalam LRT k?
kamal : ok.
Mr. X : awak ada tissue tak?
kamal : ade (sambil ambik tisu)
Mr. X : nah kak,akak nangis lap lah mata tu..
seri : takpela.saya tak nangis(air mata tu keluar sebab aku ngan sheeda gelak atas satu lawak yang Mr. X tu buat,sori kamal,no bad intention,Mr. X ya nak beguro jak kali)
Mr. X : sleepy?(sambil tengok sheeda)
sheeda : ha ah..(angguk kepala)
Mr. X : nanti kita turun guna lif ok.pastu kita naik balik.pastu kita turun balik k?(dia ajak aku main-main lif lah pulakk..)
seri : takpe la dik,akak nak cepat ni de keje sikit.(aku terus jek keluar sebaik pintu LRT tu terbukak)

aku takde niat nak larikan diri,tapi aku taknak la ditangkap wat vandalism.Tapi aku agak terkesima sebab ni first time aku berhadapan dengan makhluk Allah yang macam tu.Bukan tak penah jumpa,tapi ni kali pertama aku bercakap dan layan orang kurang upaya.Mungkin kamal dan sheeda dah biasa sebab diorang jadi committee FESPIC aritu.Erm,kesian jugak..

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11:43am, Johnny's.

Aku dapat message dari Irasaila sebab dah janji nak jumpa.

seri : owh shit..lupak mek dah janji ngn ira.kesian nya.camney owh?
sheeda : la..sempat jak.kak makan kita terus balit.

lepas makan,kamal tetiba bagitau yang arini the weirdest day ever.Erm..agak lah.sebab tu aku nak abadikan lam blog ni.Hari ni tanggal 29 January 2009,aku,kamal dan sheeda bersetuju bahawa hari ni memang agak ganjil sebab banyak benda tak tercapai akal ku telah berlaku.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

aku percaya akan jodoh::PART II::

yahh..aku percaya akan jodoh(part II).This time i will not talk about ber'jodoh' dengan lecturer but I will share my friend's experience and mine oso(haha!).Beberapa maklumat broke-up-thingy terpaksa dirahsiakan atas sebab-sebab keselamatan diri aku supaya pada masa hadapan apabila dorang dah baca blog ni dorang takkan baling penyapu kat muka aku.

First story (dengan penoh konfiden),one girl broke up with her boyfriend and she call me (sambil nangis of cos!).After almost 7 years ber'gerek',after full planning to get engage this June and will be getting married this September,they choose to separate after going through a really really really hard time.I could be more understand their situation because i was the one yang menjadi tempat luahan hati each and every time they had a fight.Ya..mungkin tiada jodoh.

Second story (dengan mulut poret),one guy lost his fiance last raya.An ordinary guy who fall for one girl who fight for cancer.He stood still beside her girlfriend until her last breath.It does look like a malay drama as their engagement was held in a hospital,after his mother gave the ring,after so many tears streaming down his face,after he had some black-out,he saw with his own eyes the very last breath+tears+smile."Allah lebih menyayangi nya.."ayat pertama keluar dari mulut aku untuk bestfriend aku setelah sekian waktu dia berdiam menenangkan hati.

Third story (agak blur sikit cerita tok),one guy broke up with his girlfriend last night.I am not sure if i am the first person he texted in order to get some tips to forget someone.I know that he really love this woman.Maybe this guy put too much effort to ensure his 'jodoh' working.

Sebagai homosapiens,aku tak pernah tau pasal jodoh dan hanya redha atas apa yang berlaku.Mungkin aku tak pernah ambil tahu,atau aku tak nak ambil tahu,atau aku memang tak nak tahu pasal jodoh.Sungguh daif jugak pemikiran aku.haha..For one reasonable 'alasan' i have been frustrated just because my first love left me.Aku cuma berfikir kenapa harus men'complicated'kan hidup mencari jodoh sedangkan Allah sudah menetapkan jodoh buat ku."Sabar ya seri.Bagaimana engkau nak menyayangi seorang adam walhal engkau belum puas menyayangi ibu bapa mu,keluarga mu,teman-teman mu,malah diri mu?"sering aku bermonolog dengan diri ku sendiri (i have no intention to tell others 'bout my insanity..haha aku tak gila cuma lebih banyak bermuhasabah).

Belum bertemu jodoh bukan bermakna aku harus bersedih,merungut(aku benci orang merungut) dan berusaha keras mencarinya.Aku berazam nak habiskan apa yang aku telah mulakan barulah aku boleh wujudkan sedikit ruang untuk aku berfikir tentang jodoh.Aku persetankan andai ada mulut-mulut berbisa yang akan men'judge' aku sebagai seorang makhluk yang menolak jodoh.Aku tak menolak jodoh cuma aku belum bersedia ke arah itu.I am scared if i screw it up.

Jodoh itu di tangan Allah.Jangan cuba terfikir untuk memiliki hak itu.Cubalah lebih redha,redha dan redha.Lately,i felt sad just because i am dying 'rindu' my niece and nephew.Missing to watch them grow up far away from my sight.I shed my tears several times and i refuse to talk to my eldest sis because i don't want her know that i miss them.It's so awful..huhu.I am in pain,i am in vain.

Dalam hidup,tak banyak tapi sedikit mesti tercalit sedikit rasa regret atas apa yang dah aku dah lakukan.Should i called it 'stupid confession'?hurm..depends on people's judgement.To confess what is beneath your deep heart is 'sacred'.But i hate when i have this thought of 'regret'.Gosh..aku suka nya,so what?suka is not love.Belum sampai tahap ya.People plisss,do understand me,do calm me down,you people make me look crazy!"Dah..cukup-cukup emo ko ya seri.Embak ilek bah.You feelingless.." again aku bermonolog!Then i highlight this phrase from nono;"Just allow your relationships to be what they want to be"--tenkiu nono!I open my eyes widely now.My soul begging you people...

"If you listen up closely..Maybe you might hear..The beating of my heart..And the saga of my tears..."

'write down with my tears,erase sadness with a smile..i still me-- hannah...and still be who I am'

Monday, January 19, 2009

"same script different cast"

Lamak gila dah x nengar lagu lamak..ney ndak aku format laptop and terlupak nak pindah lagu pasya abissss....demmit!But it's ok..nasip bait che baha datang bilik bawak mp3 nya..aku pun tompang sekaki dengar since malas nak pasang mp4 dirik pun..tiba-tiba aku dengar lagu yang aku dah lamak gila sik dengar..last time aku dengar 2005 masa baruk masok UIA Gombak.Ya pun atas usaha Kamal pasang lagu ya every single minute okayy!Sik payah google carik lyric koatan selalu ilak dengar ya aku boleh hafal lyric nya..haha.Lagu tok best maybe sebab singer nya Whitney Houston(featuring Deborah Cox la tapi..)plus lagu tok berdialogue bah..agak unique la walaupun hakikatnya sidak duak bertengkar sebab sorang laki(pa jak la..banyak gik lelaki lam dunia tok)...bah-bah layan gik lagu tok..banyak juak lagu lamak aku dengar malam tok.Usher,Exist,M.Nasir,Hasnol,BSB,Taufik Batisah,Ukay's,dan yang paling sik boleh blah..Adam Ahmad(Kau pergi jua)..Cali jak asa..haha tapi layannnn~


Same script, different cast - Whitney Houston

"Same Script Different Cast"
(feat. Deborah Cox)

[SPOKEN]

[Whitney:] Um? Hey Deb.
[Deborah Cox:] Mmm hmm?
[WH:] Thank you for being woman enough to come.
[DC:] Whitney, what's this about?

[SUNG]

[WH:] I know he's leaving me for you.
[DC:] Who said that? Who told you that it's true?

[WH:]
What is he tellin' you?
Could it be the same things that he told me?

[DC:] He told me that he loved me.
[WH:] I heard that.
[DC:] He told me I was (harmony) beautiful. How did you know? How did you know?
[WH:] Because I played that scene before.

[CHORUS:]
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.

[DC:]
What you're saying could be true.
But how can I take advice from you?

[WH:]
I'm not hating,
But I wish the one before me
Would have warned me too babe.

[DC:] Don't say no more. La La La La La La La La La
[WH:] Uncover your ears, girl.
[DC:] I'm not listening. La La La La La La La La La

[WH:]
But I know you hear me.
Maybe my reasons are wrong,
But I know that you believe me.

[CHORUS]
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.

[DC] It's your fault you didn't love him enough.

[WH:]
That's the problem.
I loved him too much.
And when you love him
He becomes unattracted to you.

[DC:] Oh no, he's changed and I'll prove you wrong.
[WH:] No you won't.
[DC:] So go away. Leave us the hell alone! He loves me.
[WH:] He'll hurt you.
[DC:] He'll stay with me.
[WH:] He'll leave you.
[WH and DC:] For sure! For sure!

[CHORUS]
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.

[DC:]
This is a retake of my life.
You were his star for many nights.
But now the roles have changed.
I'm the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause this will last.
I'm the future, you're his past.

[WH:]
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.

[WH and DC:]
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.

[WH:] Enjoy it now.
[DC:] Enjoy just now.
[WH:] It won't last.
[DC:] I know it will last.
[WH and DC:] Same script, different cast.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

cryinG blacK tearS..

'kepak'..that is the right word to represent what i feel right now.Start clas semangat gila nak pegi clas.Then Dr. Wahyudi dah bagi quiz every week.So,i have to stay alert.Clas lain pun i think i should score.Hidup mesti ada cita-cita.Kalau letak target serendah-rendahnya so pa yang kita dapat pun serendah-rendah pencapaian.Aku rasa aku dah sampai tahap letih gila nak berfikir and bercakap.Aku semacam nak berenti dari tengok orang.Baca behavior orang.Demmit!Enuf seri..I never realized till one night tears streaming down my face.And at the moment i shed my tears,I thought this pain never grows old.Some say it's a state of mind.But it's my heart that really hurts.I only aim to please you all.But what's a smile really worth?Entahla.Huhu.Aku rasa tergelincir sikit so aku pun baca lah poem collection aku.Then,jeng jeng jeng...aku jumpa poem ntah sapa punya.But i like this poem.Macam tengok cermin masa baca poem nih.So lets recite it dalam ati..

BATU

batu mawar
batu langit
batu duka
batu rindu
batu jarum
batu bisu
kaukah itu...teka-teki yang tak menepati janji?

Dengan seribu gunung,langit tak runtuh dengan seribu perawan
hati tak jatuh dengan seribu sibuk

sepi tak mati dengan seribu beringin ingin tak teduh.

Dengan siapa aku mengeluh?
Mengapa jam harus berdenyut sedang darah tak sampai

mengapa gunung harus meletus sedang langit tak sampai

mengapa peluk diketatkan sedang hati tak sampai

mengapa tangan melambai sedang lambai tak sampai. Kau tahu?

batu risau
batu pukau
batu sepi
batu ngilu
batu bisu
kaukah itu teka-teki yang tak menepati janji?


*Huemm..sungguh ke jiwa poem nih..Keh..layannn..